Thanks to all that gave me comments.  this really is fun. I don't know how much time i will have to put into it but i love you all and years ago wished for a public journal because i've always enjoyed sharing my life with others and learning about what they are going thru.  i used to have much more time to write than i do now.  life feels like one big blur sometimes.

however i make it a priority to put relationships with people first and this is a fantastic forum to develop relationships with people that i care for very much but haven't been able spend time with.

thanks to my guys for practically forcing me to get started!!

today i've had more energy than i had yesterday and i am grateful.

we are going thru some intense suffering at our house.  we never really know what each hour will hold and there are many decisions that are very confusing that i have to make that will effect the whole family in a powerful way.

to tell you the truth, i am thankful for this trial because it is God's way of answering many  prayers that i have prayed for years.  prayers such as that God would cause each of us in this family to love Him above all else, (which really is a little vague because that heart condition looks different for different people).  anyway, it seems like us humans become really desperate for God when life gets unbearable.  well He has our attention now and we are trusting Him.  this is a really great place to be-living one moment at a time in God's strength because my own is all used up.  i am blessed.

today i got to stay home all day.  how fun!!  i aired blankets and pillows in the fresh sunshine, taught some school to the younger 3, and have spent alot of time fuguring this xanga thing out. it's taking a while because i am enjoying being in the basement alone and don't really want to call anyone down here.

well, it's about time to get ready for church.  it's hard for me to stop writing.  i LOVE to write.  you may all be sorry i'm here.

blessings,

pauline

Hi All! 

After hearing about Xanga on a very regular basis at my house and seeing the fun everybody is having keeping up with friends, with Daniel as my coach and teacher I am writing my first real post.  So much is going on in my life now and I am excited to be seeing God work.  It seems He never answers my prayers the way I think He will, but He answers them in the most effective ways to bring about HIS purpose for my life which tends to be different than MY purpose.

These are the verses I meditated on this morning:

Psalms 119: ²⁵My earthly life cleaves to the dust; revive and stimulate me according to Your word!^(F)

    ²⁶I have declared my ways and opened my griefs to You, and You listened to me; teach me Your statutes.

    ²⁷Make me understand the way of Your precepts; so shall I meditate on and talk of Your wondrous works.^{(G) 25}My earthly life cleaves to the dust; revive and stimulate me according to Your word!^(F)

³¹I cleave to Your testimonies; O Lord, put me not to shame!

    ³²I will [not merely walk, but] run the way of Your commandments, when You give me a heart that is willing.

    ³³Teach me, O Lord, the way of Your statutes, and I will keep it to the end [steadfastly].

    ³⁴Give me understanding, that I may keep Your law; yes, I will observe it with my whole heart.^(H)

    ³⁵Make me go in the path of Your commandments, for in them do I delight.

Blessings to all of you!

Pauline

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